She wonders........

She wonders whether she has a chance with him.................
She wonders whether he even knows she exist and if he does, does he notices her?
She wonders what it would be like to be cuddled comfortably in his strong arms.....to feel his fingers entwined with hers.....
She wonders if she is good enough for him.....
She wonders if he is the ONE that she have been waiting for her whole life.....
She wonders what it would be like looking at him from the end of the church aisle....
She wonders if he is the answer to her happily ever after.....
She wonders.........

Work....

Hey there you guys!! Sorry been busy lately and did not have the mood to blog also... =] Anyway, just wanna update you guys that I'm in my third week with my company. Everything is going fine. Sometimes busy, sometimes lengang... hehehe.... can facebook... =D. One negative thing here is that the restaurants in this bloody place is frigging expensive!! One day can spend almost 20 just on food... So, thats why I mostly bring food from home la... Cheaper... Lols... You all know me la... I like to save wan. =) So that's about it i think.

Gerry signing off!

Paintball!!!

Today was a fun day... Woke up in the morning then went to market with my parents... reach home then some friends were passing by so asked them to come in for coffee...chit chatted for about an hour then got ready to go out for lunch. My parents' friend and her son (David) took us to go makan at a famous porridge stall near Batu Caves.... the whole place was packed so had to take a number and wait.... then David asked me whether I wanted to join him and his cousins for paintball after lunch... so, since I had nothing on in the afternoon, I decided to go join them for paintball... my FIRST ever game!! Hahahahaha.... Was fun... like really really fun even though there were a few of us only... There were 5 of us in our team and we played against another team of 3 Chinese guys... played 4 games... got shot 9 times which later turned into "blue-blacks"... not complaining at all weih... then after that, sent his cousin home then took shower and ate dinner at his cousin's place... watched Independence Day and also celebrated his aunty's birthday there.... Hung out there till about 8.30pm then we drove back to Melawati.... the paintball place was around The Curve there.... Bandar Utama.... somewhere nearby there la.... So, really really enjoyed myself today (i meant yesterday)!! =) So, all you people out there.... paintball is like the coolest sport ever!!! Love it!!

Thats all for now.. Peace out..

The stare is blank but the mind is full....

I have been staring a lot lately... the kind of stares that would promt Yee May to say, "Gerry, what you looking at?". It's the kind of stare I do when my mind is going through a thousand thoughts at once.... like.... what's my purpose in this life? What should I do? What will my future be like? Will I get married? How many kids should I have? Why are some people just born lucky? Why are others born rich? Can I be filthy rich one day? How long am I gonna live? What was that bitch wearing? (sorry for using that word... it's just been a long time since I remembered using it)

I just want to sit down and not think of anything for a while.... the thinking is involuntary and it's tiring!

My January

January was as uneventful as any month could be. It could be all my doing or just that plans don't always go my way. Sighz.....

Was also beginning to think whether I should actually apply for a job or should I just stay home and eat cereal and maggi noodles for the rest of my life.... hahaha.... what a thought!! But it did cross my mind... scary....

Miss uni life a lot..... didnt appreciate the times we had in uni till the last few days we had left to savour it... but we did savour it though not long enough.....

It just dawned on me that gone were the days when we were arguing about which advertisement we need for our assignment, which sponsor to meet, which report was to be handed in and when, what to eat after class - was it mamak (nasi lemak goreng), or Old Town Kopitiam, or what to eat after setting up the place - Picadilly or Murni's? Those were sweet memories and ones that will always have a place in my heart especially the ones shared with my gang..... the notorious gang of tutorial 2:
1) Cheah Yee May
2) Cheah Kar ling
3) Cheu Zue Peng
4) Don Natalie Pereira

So thats all my musings for today... =)

p/s: I created a blog!!!! Hahahaha...so proud of myself....